What scares me...

You know one thing that deeply upsets me is death. I will never be able to see the people I love or i’ll never hear their voices again. I need to hear them again it’s truly upsetting how painful it is to go through life without being able to have them next to you, telling you how much you are needed or how much you are truly loved. I think back to when I was the worst to the one I am thinking about; how horrible I was towards her because I was having an episode. I miss her so much, literally what I would do to hear her telling me I'm gonna make it that she loves and supports me no matter what; I just want her voice in my head telling me i’ll do right, I’ll make it that now matter what i’ll always make her proud. Nan I miss you so much!